Today I feel a sense of renewal, something has shifted again, something has opened. Kabir, my husband, and I were speaking this morning about the prayer from Koran to guide us on the straight path, instead of following the labyrinth of the mind. Somehow it became very clear that one of the things that prevents us from moving easily toward God or union is our belief system. I guess I had seen us making choices or attempting to follow some religious system and thinking that this was what tended to either keep us on the path or lead us astray. Today I felt deeper into it and saw that it is our doubt, our fear of following guidance, our belief that our path needs to proceed the way we think it ‘should’ go that plays a big part in determining if we are taking the short way or the long way which can contain lots of suffering. I think of how often in my life, I was going in one direction and something came and totally changed my course.
One of those things was a dream that I had while living in the Ozarks in a cabin on five acres that I had bought in the middle of 1,000 acres of environmentally protected forest. And then the dream and a call to Shaykh Nur in New York for interpretation. I said ‘Nur, I had a dream’. And he said ‘Move to Boulder’. Shock, resistance and then surrender to go and see; one step at a time. It wasn’t what I had thought was my quickest path to my destiny. It wasn’t comfortable. I had to trust completely that this was right, not just because Nur told me, but because it felt right and also my son said, when I asked him what he thought, ‘This is home’. In Boulder, I met my beloved husband, who has a birthday tomorrow. Home, indeed.
Oh, Beloved One, guide us on the straight path back to Oneness, back to wholeness. And so it is!
